We were born to die. || Phoenix & Ewa
She had spent all night with him, by his side, in that uncomfortable chair. She tried to sleep, but her body and mind wouldn’t let her have that peace. No, instead, all that came were tears, and pain. Tears of sadness for seeing him like this, hooked up to all these machines, barely breathing. Pain for what she did, even if she didn’t have any control over herself. She had put the man she loved here, and she would never forgive herself for it. All she wanted was for his eyes to open, and him to look at her and know she didn’t mean this, and for him to be better.
A knock on the door interrupted her thoughts and she wiped at her tear streaked face. In came his doctor, a folder in his hand. He took some vitals before looking at Ewa. “Ma’am, can we speak out in the hall?” Nodding, Ewa got up from the chair, her muscles aching from having not moved all night, and followed the doctor outside. Once there, she looked down at her hands, hoping the doctor had good news. He had to; she knew Phoenix could pull through this.
“As you know, we have been running many tests to see how bad the silver affected him.” Ewa responded with a silent nod to the doctor. “The results just came back from the labs, and…I’m sorry, but he’s not going to be able to breathe on his own again. There was too much damage to his esophagus, and some of the silver from his chest got into his lungs and destroyed parts of it. Now, we know he does not have any immediate family left, but since you have so strongly spoken up about your relationship with him, this is a decision to be left with you. Also, we do believe you should discuss this with the Beta, though please take your time.”
Ewa could barely speak. Somehow, she managed to squeak out a “What decision?” But inside, all she could think was of what she did. She basically killed him, Phoenix was never going to be the same because of her. She tried to tell herself that it wasn’t really her fault, she had no control, but the guilt still made her sick.
“The decision of whether or not to keep him on ventilators. We can wait and hope that the tissue will correct itself due to supernatural healing, but it is very rare. Most likely, he will never be able to breathe on his own. There are options, but they are very expensive and many are only in experimentation stage.” The doctor placed a reassuring hand on her shoulder, but she couldn’t look at him. She wished there were tears left in her body, but all she felt was dry sobs threatening to burst. “I will give you some time to think about it.” The doctor then turned and walked away, leaving Ewa alone in the hallway. To think.
Her feet brought her back into his room, and her eyes glanced over at him. In the back of her mind, she could hear his voice, reminding her of her promise to him. She didn’t think it would ever come to this, but something inside her told her that this was the moment he was speaking of.
“Can you promise me one thing? If you ever.. find me dying for whatever reason.. and there ‘s no way of saving me..Kill me instead. If I am to die, I’d rather it be by your hands.”
She told him she would. And that she would follow soon after. But only after she did all she could to try and save him. And that’s what she did, she did all she could. The idea of living without Phoenix was just too painful to bear. Ewa kissed him on the head and whispered she would be back. She had to go home, to their home, one last time.
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About a half an hour later, Ewa was back in the room with Phoenix. He looked so peaceful, but she knew it was only because he was heavily sedated. If he was any bit awake, he would be in so much pain. But Ewa knew he wasn’t going to wake up again. And she was going to do the same.
Ewa had made sure Smoke had enough food and water, and a clean litter bed until someone took him in. And then she grabbed a silver dagger and one of Phoenix’s full bottle of holy water and went back to the hospital. She had to keep her promise, even if she got him in this position; she promised she would do this. One last thing to show she truly loved him, and she would do anything for him.
She locked the door to the room before pulling out the dagger and holy water. Laying, down next to him, tears began to fall down her face as she held him in her arms, never wanting to let go. “I’m so sorry I did this to you. I know it wasn’t my fault, and that’s why this has to be done. I love you so much, and just can’t live without you. You’re my whole life, Phoenix. I promise, I will follow soon after. I’m sorry if you have to wait for me, but I’ll be there. And we can be together, always and forever, like we always said. I love you.” Ewa put her lips to his, and imagined he could feel it, that he heard all her words. Somewhere, she heard him say her loved her too, and that thought calmed her.
With her lips still on his, Ewa plunged the dagger into his heart, the machine’s all instantly screaming at her for what she did. She heard the nurse and doctors start to run outside, and quickly grabbed the bottle of holy water. Drinking all its contents, Ewa instantly felt her mouth, her throat, her lungs, all catch on fire. It was the worst pain she ever felt. But even with all that pain, she still had a smile on her face, because she knew she would finally be truly happy. Just as the doctor finally unlocked the door, life went black, and Ewa was gone. She had collapsed on top of Phoenix’s lifeless body, her hand holding his, just like in some corny movie. Romeo and Juliet. How it was all meant to end.
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She woke up with no pain. No burning, no fire, just…peace. Funny, this isn’t what she thought Hell would be like. She thought she would be stuck in flames, the heat unbearable. Maybe this was the first place she went, before making her trip to the underworld, where Father Below waited for her. But she didn’t want to go alone, she wanted to be with Phoenix. She had promised she would follow him, and now she was here alone. In all the peace she felt in her afterlife, Ewa could still feel the pain and loneliness of being without him.
But then she felt it, or him. It was like he appeared from nowhere, but there he was in front of her, waiting. He looked happy, just as she knew she must have looked. She didn’t even feel her feet moving, but in an instant, she was in front of him, smiling at him. Everything about him was a perfect as ever. Her hands went to his face, to feel if he was real, and the feel of his skin against the palm of her hand told her this was all real. It was true, they were meant to be, she was right all along. Had they not been who would have said they would have found each other like this?
There was no need for words from her part. She had kept her promise, let him die by her hands, and joined him. They didn’t have to worry about people being against them for their different species. They didn’t have a species anymore. No, now they were just Phoenix and Ewa. They weren’t meant to live on Earth the way they had been, Ewa knew that now. Their souls weren’t meant to be separated into two halves; they were supposed to be one. They would always complete each other; always find each other in the end. Ewa embraced Phoenix, mind, body, and soul, and let her love flow into him. This was how they were meant to be, together. “I love you…” Her voice was a whisper in the air, light as a cloud, hanging in front of them, pure truth. She didn’t care what happened after this, whether they were reincarnated on Earth, or sent to hell, or stayed here, in this expanse of nothing. All she knew was she was with Phoenix, her Phoenix. Always and forever. And nothing was ever going to change that.
“Chose your last words, this is the last time….cause you and I…we were born to die.”
ooc: yes, Phoenix and Ewa are now dead. If you have any questions you can contact me, if you’re wondering what happened.
